Saturday, May 24, 2008

Always Come Back To Your Love

Can we really get over our first loves?



I was a freshman college then and love (or sex, for that matter) is something extremely unbeknownst to me.

I told *him (a very good friend) that I’m going to get my cherry popped by the time I finish my first year of college.

And surprisingly, it did happen.

Even more surprising, I did it with him (okay, okay, I’m a whore).



And it was not a spur-of-the-moment thing. It happened again. And again and again.

I was confused as hell back then because that was my first serious relationship with a person of the same sex. Career changes made it impossible for us to pursue that what might-have-been a perfect relation.

We parted ways and moved on. But recently, thoughts of him haunt me during my cold solitary nights. After four years, I still kept on asking myself, “Will I be strong enough to see him again and not be drawn by everything that has transpired between the two of us?

Yes I might be younger back then, but at such a younger age, I already knew what I wanted and am determined enough to make it all happen.

He had been with many men, and so did I.

But if there’s that slightest chance of us, being back together, then I thought that I would risk everything, life and limb included, to prove that, no matter how sappy it might sound, I’d always come back to his love.



Recently, I have been moonlighting as a private duty nurse to a patient who was admitted to our hospital but was discharged a few months ago.

His room was darn freaking cold that private nurses have to wear at least three layers of clothing or suffer the risk of frostbite.

My patient was asleep then (it was 2 am) and a generic message entered my inbox.

It was him.

*

To be continued…

24 comments:

Queer Ranter said...

Oh no!

What happened? Tell us tell us.

Jericho said...

oh wow. interesting.

Lawstude said...

hello ruff. gald ur ok. first loves talaga eh. dami yata nun. hintay ko na lang ang part 2.

Diablo said...

nurse ruff, dlang mo ng magpramdam...

Bino/Geno said...

First love is first love. Kahit pag balibaliktarin. Hehe. I loved my first love. Pero I think I moved on already knowing that it is next thing to impossible to continue it.

francis said...

i would agree on bino/geno... first love is first love, you can't change it 'cause it's part of your history.

i do hope you have or are moving on on him, at least in your mind. when you see him again, that would be a different story, i guess. i tell you. the mind tells you you are OK. but when you get to encounter him again, the mind might tell you otherwise...

then again, it's just a matter of getting used to and putting yourself in control.

lagi na lang nagkakaugnay ang posts mo sa takbo ng buhay ko... such a wonder...

you take care, alright?!

icka said...

but they say first love never dies?

Dakilang Tambay said...

first love..

ako namatay na ang pag-ibig ko sa first love ko, pero friends pa rin kami. hehe

Mugen said...

Abangan ko to.

dabo said...

serendipity?..

oh ruff take care lagi..

Marcus: Bading Down Under said...

Kalokring!

Can't wait for Part 2!

savante said...

Doubt anyone ever forgets their first love :) So what does yours have to say?

Bryan Anthony the First said...

Yes, o dba Yes talaga.

woof!

wandering tsinelas said...

malandi. hahahaha!

kwento na yan bilis!

sleepy_insomniac said...

Love it here... C'mon spill the beans...

http://therelentlessquest.blogspot.com said...

Love the suspense...

kalansaycollector said...

spill the part two! ;p

Gian Paolo said...

Nakakasuspense naman ito. :D

joaqui_miguel said...

Can't wait to read the second part. :)

-bryan karl- said...

unique story... nice. :)

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