Thursday, November 15, 2007

Behind Me Lies Another Fallen Soldier

Like a soldier running without shield or armor... he runs blissfully without a care in the world...

yes, he still carries with him a bit fear


of stumbling down, or maybe of arrows...


making him slow down sometimes...


trusting his feet, and perhaps the wind, the sand
on his feet, he runs, still.



Yes, he's always on the running. Perhaps, of not stopping...

but never failing to look back

on that place where he came from.

53 comments:

just mike said...

out of the darkness
and into the sun
but i won't forget the place
i come from.

-k.c.breakaway.


run ruff. run...i know you'll get there.Godbless my friend.

CRISTIAN CARLO said...

kapatid, tag kita, aite? ^_^

curious ako abt u e. hope you don't mind.

akosikai said...

blessed are those who continue the journey after countless pitfalls,=)

KRISJASPER said...

thats my fave animal.. HORSE.

coach said...

fighting! as the koreans say it, fighting!

the nomad said...

a song came to mind after seeing the picture: wild horses by keys and levine.

don't worry, ruff, stumbling down is life's way of saying: "i have something special for you, just persevere and stand up."

=)

kalansaycollector said...

iyan ang buhay. pakikipagsapalaran.
huwag sumuko. hehe. kaya yan. laban lang ala zsa zsa zaturnah!

***

@KALANSAY COLLECTOR: Miss you too. Naku wag kang mag-alala, ako lang yan, este, si Britney lang yan, sumasayaw sa lamesa ng Gimme More. Hahaha.
~About the sweldo. Parang aatakihin na naman ako ng mga “bouts of depression” ko ha. It’s like diving at the Mariana’s Trench. Tedious, yet the reward is located at the rock bottom, almost at the center of the earth :-)


grabe. ang mahalaga na lang siguro ay mahal mo talaga ang ginagawa mo at doon ka masaya. ;p

bob said...

It's not in how many times you took a fall, but in how you were able to stood up, picked up the pieces, smiled and kept your head up, and walked as if nothing happened.

Poised pa rin. :p

KC said...

Nice to see you back here Ruff!

It doesn't matter how you are running, either fast or slow. But what matters is you know why you are running because it keeps us moving forward.

Right. We should never forget the place that we came from.

Amen sa comment ni Bob. ^_^

Bino/Geno said...

What's this about?

Reyville of Simply Manila said...

Interpretation, anyone? Pls...

my-so-called-Quest said...

ang lalim naman nun. hmmmmm. slamat sa pagbisita. tayu tyo ng hospital! for bloggers only. hehe. i was about to ask u bout' work pero, enjoy ka muna sa pahinga mo ngaun. tc=)

dazedblu* said...

Well simply that's life, going round and taking a look back fer a good path of future. hehe (korni no!)

Pero I like the idea of my-so-called-quest. :)

Keitaro Hanazawa said...

Takbo lang Ruff.Ang importante, alam mo kung saan ka nanggaling at kung saan ka patungo. Mukhang malalim ang pinaghuhugutan ng emosyon ng post na ito, kaya ito ang para sa iyo:

“The journey of a thousand leagues begins with a single step. So we must never neglect any work of peace within our reach, however small.” ~ Adlai Stevenson.

kingdaddyrich said...

naalala ko ang RED HORSE! hayy,, tagal ko nang hindi nainom.. tsk tsk stkk

lagalag12 said...

parang ang hirap maging masaya sa mga panahong ito.

LAD said...

Pang totoy mola entry ito! Haha

woist kiss ka jan! haha sige pwede. haha

Namatayan ka ng patient? Nabasa ko dun sa twitter mo.

Mahirap yan lalo na kung may emotional attachment ka na dun sa patient kung matagal na siya sa ospital. Na experience ko na yan eh.

~*~princess jackie ~*~ said...

ghad, this is soo deep.

aCey said...

nice. welcome back, nurse r! :) missed your stories. :) hope you're ok.

Scarlet said...

is this post some sort of a metaphor as compared to your current status? hmm.. today's just one of those days wherein reflecting is inevitable due to all the chaos going on, isn't it?. *sigh* if u just stand still, u'll get more vulnerable to those arrows. looking back will maximize the possibility of stumbling down. just keep running.. everything will be just fine. just dont run too quickly, u might miss a lot on your journey. take lotsa care. =D

philippe said...

he decided that he is made for running.
he decided that he doesn't want to stop because he has to.
maybe he is running away to find himself?

Marcus: Bading Down Under said...

A lovely entry. As always. :-)

savante said...

Wow. Horses. What's the metaphor about?

Yoshke said...

hi, ruff! Im back.




at sino naman 'tong kabayo mo? o ikaw ba yung kabayong 'to? hehehe

_davenport_ said...

no word for this, for i don't exactly get it..

anyways.. naririnig ko madalas ang "sands on my/his feet"..

parang empty coffee cup, runaway trains..etc..

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@JUST MIKE: Aaaw, Breakaway! One of my most loved songs. :-)

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.


I'll break away. And I'll see you when I get there.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@CHRISTIAN CARLO: Sure, sure chris. Feel free to do so. And of course, will do. :-)

@AKOSIKAI: Equally blessed are those who stood up beside the fallen, giving him the strength and the courage to rise and pick up the fight.
~And for those who continuously inpire him in every step of the way.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@KRIS JASPER: I just feel like a horse sometimes. Focused, carefree, and wild --- at times struck on my back, but still running nonetheless.

@COACH: Hahaha! Fighting, indeed. Fighting! :-)

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@THE NOMAD: "Wild horses couldn't drag me away
Wild Wild horses, couldn't drag me away"


Thanks Nomad. I still am. Standing, that is.

@KALANSAY COLLECTOR: Tama ka diyan! Bawal talagang sumuko. Ika nga, quitters never win.
~It just took me quite some time to reach the conclusion that I am actually looking forward to go to my work. For the first week, it feels like I'm dragging my feet to work day in and day out. But now, it feels like I'm getting there, kalansay, almost there.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@BOB: Sabi nga ni Carrie:

"I had a choice, I could sling off the runway and let my inner model die of shame or I could pick myself up flaws and all and finish.

And that's just what I did. Because when real people fall down in life, they get right back up and keep on walking.


I guess I'm one of them real people after all. :-)

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@KC: I, actually don't know where I'm going. Hahaha. I'm just allowing the wind, the sand, and my feet, to lead me where I need to go. :-)
~Just kidding. Amen to Bob too.

@BINO/GENO: It doesn't have to mean anything. Feel free to interpret the "lines" as to your personal liking. :-)

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@REYVILLE of SIMPLY MANILA: Ever had that sinking feeling when you actually don't know what you're doing yet you keep on doing it anyway?
~That's what it's all about.

@MY-SO-CALLED-QUEST: Hahaha. Blogging is like a ventilator. You know you can't live without it, but you know you can't live with it forever either.
~It's one of those "damned if you do, damned if you don't" things. It really is a tad too complicated.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@DAZED BLU*: I hope that my future'll be a very bright and productive one at that.

@KEITARO HANAZAWA: Work is actually taking up all the best in me. I'm too drain to even live a life of my own. I guess that just sums it all up.
~But I'm coping kei. It just need a little alcohol here, a little more sodium over there, and a warm company of friends to top it all up. :-)

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@KING DADDY RICH: Mahaba-habang inuman 'to kingdaddy! :-) Sali naman ako dyan!

@LAGALAG12: Sinabi mo pa. :-) Sad ka rin ba lagalag?
~Salamat sa pagbisita ha!

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@LAD: Totoy Mola? How come? Please explain. (Does it have something to do with the horses?) Hahaha. Nabigla naman ako dun! :-)
~Hindi naman ako na-attach this time. Naawa lang ako, tsaka napagod, I compressed his chest for 2 hours kaya. But he still died nonetheless. It's his time.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@PRINCESS JACKIE: So does my depression.

@ACEY: I didn't left naman acey. I just took a short blognap. :-)

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@SCARLET: I agree. There's just *that phase, *that time of one's life when you ask yourself if everything you've been doing is worth your time and effort and sacrifice. Whether what you're risking is worthy of what you're gaining. Or you're doing what you really want.
~But just like clouds, rainy days, and broken hearts, this phase, too, shall pass.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@PHILIPPE: He decided that he is not only made for running, but for loving as well. He does not stop because he is built that way, and he knows that stopping is never really an option. And in the end, he'll get to realize that what he's running away from is the VERY thing that he's been really looking for. :-)
~Thanks for that wonderful perspective philippe. Your comment made me think really hard. :-)

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@MARCUS: Bading Down Under: Thank you very much my dear Marcus. Extend my deepest, sincerest regards to Oli and David. :-)

@SAVANTE: Naaah, it's just work stuffs. Hahaha. I actually am wondering whether doctors feel the same way too, you know, that *diaphoresing feeling when you ask yourself if you really want to become a physician. Just curious.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@YOSHKE: I'm back too. :-)
~I'm the kabayo in front. Behind me are 3 kabayo's who are chasing yours truly. Their names are *****, ******* and ********. Hahaha. Just kidding! Glad to see you back!

@DAVENPORT: Much like "so many things to do, so many words to say, and so many emotions to share...

...yet only there's just so little time." I missed you dave! :-)

Daizuke said...

Two words -- Miss Ya!

KC said...

That's OK, as long as you know why you're running. Keep on moving forward, Ruff. I'm going to be your unofficial guardian chaka girl. Hee-hee!

God bless. Na-miss kita. =)

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@DAIZUKE: I miss you too. :-)

kalansaycollector said...

we know na darating ka rin dun.

dazedblu* said...

Of course it'll happened fer yew.. :)

JOSH said...

HI ruff, wild horses ba yang pix na yan, running wild and free!?

How r u nurse rufruf? lapit na pala pasko!

JOSH said...

HI ruff, wild horses ba yang pix na yan, running wild and free!?

How r u nurse rufruf? lapit na pala pasko!

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@KC: An unofficial guardian angel is always welcome kace! Chaka? Of course, not! :-)
~Miss you too.

@KALANSAY COLLECTOR: So near yet so far. But still, I'm thankful that I'm making those baby-steps. Hehehe. :-)

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@DAZEDBLU*: In His due time, that is.

@JOSH: The picture reminds me so much of myself... running... not slowing down... throwing away the cares of the world... to find my true place under the sun.
~Makes me want to watch the movie Cimarron again. :-)

~DECEM-Beer-FEST perhaps?

chase said...

awwww.. wild horses running amok. hehehe..
run like the wind!!
miss ko na si papa ruff

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