Monday, December 25, 2006

Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas

I woke up last Saturday with a huuuuggge sigh of relief. I made it 2 weeks into my new job and I just love it. It feels as if I have accomplished something so huge and I couldn’t feel any more prouder of myself. I know that that short a duration of work is relatively brief compared to some of my medium- and long-term undertakings but I’m equally elated and contented with the outcome thus far and I know I definitely did something really good.

I used to have a lot of reservations in my current job. I used to drown myself in self-doubts asking whether I’m good enough to be an efficient nurse agent. I wallow into the ocean of uncertainty as to whether the career path that I have chosen will be a fruitful and productive one. I stayed behind the shadows of my fears and suspicions. I feared I have regressed into my old past all surrounded with mediocrity and inconsistency.

But now I know that I’m not that person anymore. During the past week, I’m really proud to say that I think I had consciously strived to become a better version of myself—an improved person with an unequalled and unparalleled worth. I expanded my comfort zone. I brought down my personal boundaries. I began to trust people better and I have invested in several relationships with new friends and colleagues. I have transcended successfully—from a child carefree and free-spirited and light—to a man responsible, mature and mindful of his demeanor and character. I have never felt this good before. The happiness within me is palpable and that fact makes me extremely happy.

I guess life has its own ways on making us realize our importance and worth. May it be succeeding on your personal careers, or gaining an A+ on a very important undertaking, or successfully mending a broken relationship with a person who used to be really close to you, or creating new ones with people you feel comfortable and at ease with—everything is possible with faith and determination. Risks are everywhere and is everything but inevitable, but wouldn’t you agree with me that success is much much sweeter when we know that we were able rise above our limitations and we reached our aspirations with perseverance and determination?

It is all about appreciating every little blessing we breathe in day in and day out. Today is the perfect moment for celebrating the real essence of the Season—that is, the Child is born to make this world a better place for you and me. Life is to be cherished and treasured. It is to be shared with people that are close to our hearts. And with a resounding heart and a spirit full of unending gratitude, I would like to wish all of you a VERY MEANINGFUL CHRISTMAS AND A BLESSED NEW YEAR. God Bless Us Best. All Is Full of Love.


bingskee said...

what insights..

bless you and your thoughts this season.

belated merry christmas and a blessed new year to you, ruff..

guile said...

here's hoping the new year will be better than the last :)..

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

hi bingskee!!! happy new year!!!

haaaay, the pressures of entering a new job a little deviant from my forte is slowly taking it's toll on me. but i know that despite the tremendous physical and emotional sacrifices im battling against right now, im sincerely thankful for this wonderful opportunity where i can test my discipline and self-reliance.. though i know that this might not be the kind of work that i can see myself committing into a long-term perspective, im grateful that ive learned so much in this job and i wouldnt exchange the beautiful times ive spent in this company from anything else in the world.

about the The CORRS theme, i'm completely smitten by their song, THE HARDEST DAY (with Alejandro Sanz) esp the lines... CAUSE LOVING YOU IS MY FINEST HOUR, AND LEAVING YOU THE HARDEST DAY OF MY LIFE. its a melancholic song, i hope youll get to listen to it. :) you'll love it. haha..

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

hi guile!!! happy new year!! thanks for the well-wishes.. in my heart are sincerest hopes that this year will be the best one ever!! and i hope that this year will be a very memorable one for you, too...

i want to share with you a link (it's my trainor's blog site and she really likes literature, uhm, she's an ab lit grad kasi haha), ive forgotten the address eh, haha, but i will give it to you once ive remembered it. haha.

have a good year guile!!!

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

my sincerest condolences mel. :(

haay, im having a hard time concentrating on my new job. aside from the tremendous pressure from my superiors and the emotional slaps from irate american clients, my physical and psychological faculties are being tested to the core. though i have to admit that ive fallen in love with some of my colleagues and the salary is kinda okay, i really think that im not fit for this kind of work. id rather be a true-blue nurse instead, with the sputums and the exudates and the likes... :)

(haha. im fervently praying that my colleagues will not be able to read this comment or im a dead man come next week) haha

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

hi mark thanks for visiting my blog. hope you dont mind me adding your link in my blogroll. :)

well, i really appreciate your candor. this entry evoked a certain emotion i know i hadnt had felt in the recent year. im trying to be celibate, you know... or am i? haha. its just that i havent had *** for a year and a half now and im currently busy with my present job. haaay, i miss the feeling. hope u guys will have a wonderful life ahead of u!!!

Mozza said...

Hi ruff. Congratulations on your new job and happy new year to you!

ruff nurse-du-jour said...
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ruff nurse-du-jour said...

thanks mozza.

hopefully i will have the opportunity of accidentally dialing your number during one of my shifts and then i'll share my heart out with you.

happy new year to you too.

(btw, ive bought an ipod video as my personal gift after ive received my 1st-month salary. i couldn't wait to have an iphone when it was rumoured that it will be released in asia in 2008. gosh, can't wait that long... but i'll definitely try)