Thursday, August 09, 2007

When She Cries

First of all, allow me to thank all of you for your overwhelming support. The past few weeks have been really difficult—trust issues, relationship matters, unfulfilled needs—they have been in and out of my head for the time being. I was in tears as I was typing the last post that took just a few minutes to make, but it took me a whole lot of time deciding as to whether I should post some personal issues in this blog.

And I’m just happy I did.

And as I was reading your comments and kind words, another set of tears fill my eyes. This time, it was not of pain, but of joy and bliss, that all of you shared a little piece of yourself and imparted with my sympathies. I am forever indebted. Thank you for making me feel loved and appreciated.

I am now moving on. Life is good and life is fun. Build bridges while you can. Spend time with the ones you truly love. Fulfill your childhood dreams. Cry. Laugh. Feel. Live life like there’s no tomorrow. Do the things that scare you the most. Give it your all. Dance like there’s no one watching. Spread and cultivate friendship. Love without expecting in return. Make a new beginning.

They say that optimism is contagious
, and here I am, a life survivor and a testament to the fact that happiness is better shared than kept. Life, despite all the disappointments, is still beautiful indeed.


And with this new phase comes my homecoming to normalcy, my second meme for the month. If it weren’t for Mikkoi, I would probably be staying here lifeless, not knowing what to do. Atleast, his tagging pushed me to do something productive, and for this tag I am very thankful.

Three Things That Scares Me:
1a. Dakota Fanning in Hide and Seek

1b. Dakota Fanning in War of the Worlds

1c. Dakota Fanning in all of her movies.

For short: DAKOTA FANNING!!!

2. Spending my lifetime alone
3. Death of any family member

Three People Who Make Me Laugh:

1. (Ugly) Betty Suarez (America Ferrera)
2. Jack McFarland (Sean Hayes) with/without Cher

3. Elle Woods (Reese Witherspoon)

Three Things I Love

1. God, family, friends, etc. etc.

2. Long walks in the park with the one you love (HHWWPSSP
3. Dexter
(love love love this one)

Take a little time watching this short clip from Dexter:

Three Things I Hate

1. Poverty
, hunger, violence.
People who take other people for granted
Bittersweet goodbyes and tragic endings

Three Things I Don't Understand

1. Why some people are devoid of manners/ignorant of common courtesy

2. Why this certain Pops Fernandez keeps on insisting on being the "It Girl" when she isn't IT and she isn't a GIRL anymore

3. Why Dexter and Michael C. Hall weren't nominated for this year's Emmy.

Three Things On My Desk

1. Laptop

2. Mobile phones, iPod

3. Post-its, brochures from this fastfood chain, that home TV shopping channel, etc.

Three Things I'm Doing Right Now
1. Answering this meme (and some blog comments as well)

2. Listening to Madonna's I'll Remember.. oops, it's now K.D. Lang's Love Affair
3. Planning an Ugly Betty/Heroes/Dexter marathon tonight.

Three Things I Want To Do/Achieve Before I Die

1. Have an undiscovered disease/theory/medical procedure named after myself.

2. Have my name listed in a history book or something.

3. Star in a porn video or something

Three Things I Can Do

1. Deliver babies and placenta

2. Circumcise

3. Do *really good yoga

Three Things I Can't Do

1. Bear children and deliver them myself

2. Ride a bicycle

3. Eat liver
with some fava beans and a nice chianti.

Tick Tock Clarice!

Three Things I Would Like To Learn
1. Gymnastics

2. Play the piano
3. A foreign language (Spanish, Latin, Mandarin)

Three Things You Should Listen To

1. Your instinct/intuition

2. Your BRAIN over your HEART

3. Your BLOGMATES and BLOGFRIENDS!!! (Trust me on this)

Three Things You Should Never Listen To

1. Dr. Phil and those hosts of self-help programs/authors of self-help books (Right, Kiks?)

2. People who are always trying to pull you down
3. J** R**** - that Fear Factor guy. Please, tone it down a notch. Whatever it is, just stop. The coaching? Not funny or helpful anymore.

Three Favorite Foods

1. KFC's Original Recipe Chicken

2. Pistachio, Caramel and Strawberry Ice Cream (individually or otherwise)
3. Krispy Kreme doughnuts

Three Shows I Watched As A Kid
1. Mighty Morphin' Power Rangers

2. Sailor Moon

3. Ula, ang Batang Gubat

Three Things You Wish

1. World Peace

2. Ian Somerhalder's/Chris Evans' Body

3. To have a peaceful, contented, and happy life.

Since I think that I’m probably the last person in the cyberspace to answer this memetics, I’m not tagging anybody. If you still haven’t answered this post, however, consider yourself tagged.


And oops, as inspired by Empress Maruja, I took this quiz: "What Type of Gay Are You?" and lookie lookie at what I got:

You scored as The all-round cute gay guy

You are a cute guy who many would die to be with..........lucky!!

The all-round cute gay guy


Raging Queer


A Big Bear


Straight Acting


S + M guy


Straight Queer Basher




What type of Gay are YOU?

That definitely puts a huge smile on my face. Haha.

Thank you once again for your kind words of support and encouragement. I’m glad to say that I’m now bouncing back. Again, my sincerest appreciations.


Quiz from QuizFarm, Images from Flickr, Yahoo! Movies, Yahoo! TV and Wikipedia.


Budi said...

You have detail goals in your life. At least make your life more cheerful to achieve it...Do the best and God Bless you


Jhed said...

We have the same goal in life. LOL! To star in a porn video! LOL! That'll be awesome. Haha!

Oh and hey.. I love the Fear Factor guy. He's very enthusiastic.. and no, I'm not being sarcastic. I really love the guy. :P

OMG! Chris Evans! He's so hot. LOL!

chase said...

dakota fanning is really scary.
she acts so good at that age.. grrr..
also the kid in sixth sense what's his name?? the oslmith kid?

jack mcfarland is the bomb. i love his role in will and grace. very funny. The show wouldn't attract viewers without the jack and karen tandem..

mobile phonessssss??!
u nid that many? hehehe. just wondering

good in yoga and trying to learn gymnastics.. hmmm.. where are you getting at ruff? hehe

joe rogan? i find him really yummy.
maybe he should shush up a bit.
Krispy kreme? hahay. wala yan dito sa cebu. pag mag visit ako jan. that's definitely the 1st prio in my to do list.

wow, all around cute gay guy.
pa try nga...


hahahah. pareha tayo.=)

kc said...

wow. glad to hear that you're coping. =)

saisho said...

just keep on smiling. everything will be great. and while you're on it, i think it's best to have your comfort food by your side. works for me, ice cream or beer and pizza never fails. lol

Yas Ligtas said...

Hey Ruff,
those are wise words you've posted there. easier said than done for me though. May your positivity infect me.Amen. ;)

cory said...

wahaha super natawa ako sa dakota fanning part n sa part about kay pops!

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

Thanks for the visit FRANX BUDI! Thanks for the kind words. Hope, indeed, is one of the best things we can do for ourselves. Mix it with optimism and enthusiasm and we’ll be definitely blessed with wonderful tomorrows.

Thanks for giving me new reasons to smile. Keep on inspiring people with your unwavering hope and passion for the things that really matter. And yup, the sun will come out, the shadows will soon fade, and life will be better by and by. Terima kasi.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

Thanks JHED for the ADD. Love your blog by the way. About our same goal, maybe we can star in the same movie or something. That would be *really amazing. Just kidding!

Though this I have to admit: I am a Fear Factor fan despite Joe Rogan’s annoyingly raspy voice. That show has an infinite means of challenging albeit dehumanizing its contestants. Distraction, a JackTV show, just could not keep it up.

And yeah, Chris Evans is scorchingly hot. And so does Ian Somerhalder, Oliver Pettigrew, Marco Dapper, Christopher Gorham, Eric Mabius, and so on, and so on. Hahaha.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

Thanks CHASE. You’re done with this MEME na right? It’s really good. Nicely done, and funny too. Very insightful.

Dakota Fanning really scares the hell out of me. Watching her gives me soo many traumatic emotional scars. I’m afraid of her in a really nasty way. And yeah, that Haley Osment kid, he’s really spooky. And 6th sense too, trust me, I can relate to that movie.

I loved loved Will and Grace because of Jack McFarland. He breathes life into the show. Will is kinda cerebral kc, eh si Jack, super comic talaga. And Jack really makes *hilarious scenes like yung kanila ni J. Lo., Janet Jackson, Cher, Britney, etc. Super funny talaga.

I’m trying to lose some flabs chase, hence the yoga, and for the gymnastics part, wala lang, na-aamaze lang ako sa mga gymnasts. Ang galing eh. Hehe. Joe Rogan is okay naman, he’s a martial artist yata talaga kaya lagi cya sa mga UFC stuffs. And pagpunta mo dito sa Manila, text mo ko chase, libre mo ko donuts, libre kita coffee. Hehehe.

All around cute gay guy na, ang ganda pa ng katawan. Greedy greedy greedy! Hahaha.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

Thanks KC. Glad that the weather is now cooperating. If it weren’t for Mikkoi’s tag & your messages, this post would have never come to fruition. I love answering meme’s pa naman. Tag mo ako if you have one ha. Hehe.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

Hi SAISHO. Thanks for your constant presence. One thing I’ve learned, in your gloomy times, surrounding yourself with happy, cheerful and optimistic people is always therapeutic. Happiness is always contagious, and thanks for infecting me with some.

And yeah, who would forget the comfort foods. When my dog died a few years back, I fed myself with too many chocolate cakes. With matching icing message pa yun na “Bee Happy” ha. Siguro ngayon, I will keep on munching my 3 favorite foods: 1. KFC original recipe chicken, 2. Pistachio ice cream, and 3. Donuts; to WHICH I promise I will overcompensate with several hours of yoga. Hehe. Thanks SAISHO. See you soon dude.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

Hi YAS/RUSS!! Thanks for the visit.

Oooh, that was a poignant poem you got there. Haaay, I’m not really good at goodbyes, in fact, I hate them. Probably the best advice that I could give you is that—if you feel that THAT PERSON is the right one for you—fight for that person, you might not get that person in the END, but atleast you can say that you’ve given it a try.

Just keep a little something to yourself, so that when the battle is finally over, you still have something to call your own. Hope my post inspired you in any way, it at all.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

Hi CORY! Thanks for stopping by. Kids appearing on horror shows really spook me. I don’t know if my Dakota-Fanning-phobia would last till I’m gray and old, but for now, the sight of that little girl makes me want to pull out a Dexter. Just kidding of course.

And about the IT GIRL, I might be too harsh on that one. But I’m sticking to my guns: “It Girl” should no longer apply to singer-Moms with children old enough to procreate or something. =) Okay that’s just mean. Sorry.

gorjess said...

ang yummy nmn ni chris evans dunn grrrrrr.... matake nga rin yang quiz na yan

kc said...

sure. you can grab the meme that i answered on my blog. just check out my post entitled, "i was tagged"

btw, i love the "IT GIRL" thing. made me laugh. =)

Marcus: Bading Down Under said...

Heartache always seems to wreak havoc on the soul all too well but I hope this finds you well...

...and yes, I agree. Pops should stop. Everything.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

Hi GORJESS!! Thanks for the visit! Yeah, Chris Evans is such an eyecandy. Yumyum!

Want more of Chris Evans? Watch Cellular, a mediocre movie overcompensated by Chris' face value. And while you're at it, grab a tissue as you watch it. =) Just kidding.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

Thanks for the visit KC! Sure sure, I will definitely try do that one of these days. I'm brewing up something funny and informative to post as of the moment. =) Keeps me excited...

Glad you loved the IT GIRL thing. I really could not understand that lady. =)

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

Hi MARCUS, thanks for the well-wishes. =) Sometimes the feeling of having a heart broken by someone is too painful; but I guess breaking someone else's heart is just as unbearable. I'm feeling much better now marcus. Hopefully, I will get there. =)

And yeah, I don't know the reasons for Pops self-reinvention, ie., plastic surgery, regression into her teenager self, posing for mags, etc. but we share the same sentiment for her.. just STOP. =)

Kiks said...

Hahahaha. Down with that IT Girl!

And Chris Evans was hot! And Krispy Kremes are Hot! And yes, yes, yes... that KFC Original Recipe Fried Chicken is so so HOT! If I am on food trip, I virtually hop from one shop to the other just for those. And this one...

Pistachios! Have I told you about minced pistachio showered all over a big scoop of vanilla? Day, to die for.

I love your meme. It meme'd me back to life.

And yes, gymnastics is great. But darn, I am 32 years old. I'll leave it to Nadja Komanechi. And you.

† alleicarg † said...

we both like strawberry ice cream and Dexter!

you've watched the whole series too??

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

Hi KIKS! Musta na? How's my uber-gorgeous friend? Its already sunny here in Manila. The storm is finally over.

Ha! That Pops Fernandez talaga! Like what I said, “It Girl” should no longer apply to singer-Moms with children old enough to procreate or something. =) That’s just mean.

Josh Hartnett's in the third world pala kiks, pero he's not as yummy as Chris Evans. Go Human Torch pa rin!

Krispy Kremes are my guilty pleasures. Sa sister ko ung glazed, sa akin yung assorted.. Perfect yun after eating KFC Bucket Meal. Hmmm minced pistachios? You gave me an idea what I will be having for my MN snack. Pero wala akong pistachio eh. Huhu.

Dont worry kiks, turuan kita pag natuto na ako ng gymnastics. Loved the male gymnasts outfits by the way.

I've read your meme too. =) It was very insightful. Dun nga pala ako unang nag-post sa yo kiks. Hehe..

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

Hi ALLEICARG!! Thanks for the visit!!! I love watching Dexter with strawberry ice cream. Especially pag may strawberry syrup, I usually imagine the syrup as blood nung mga pinapatay nila. Mwahaha. Okay, that was morbid. =(

And yup, Im looking forward for the 2nd season. Dexter is the best thing that happened to american drama series. Fave mo din ba ang Dexter? Hehehe. That was atypical. =)

† alleicarg † said...

yaz.. wee. i am morbid. T_T

actually hindi ko pa masyado mailabas sa blog ko.. baka madami matakot. hehe..
actually i get pleasure in seeing blood..kahit sa akin pa galing.. i seem to have pleasure when i get deep cuts.. bleeding. sigh..

remember what dexter said?
he was afraid that the people would know the true him.....

i'm like that..
i'm not bad though.
i just think of those weirdest whatever.. hehe

btw, ganda ng intro ng show dba..

† alleicarg † said...

yup.. that's the secret of strawberry ice cream. esp. yung sundae..

chase said...

i am looking forward for that cup of coffee.
love the post as usual

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

Thanks for the visit ALLEICARG! =)

I love morbid people. Not a fan of too much blood though. It's ironic, right? I'm a nurse and I fear soo much blood. Probably its because of its association with death. Pero as of present, parang nato-tolerate ko na cya. Who wouldn't love blood and murder after watching Dexter right? =)

Dexter is one of the most insightful drama show ever. Yeah, he might be concerned that people would know the true him, but the fact that he doesn't *really know his true self--I guess that is what really scares him.

Dont worry. We all have the weirdness inside us. It is how we conceal them to the world that makes us feel like accepted and ordinary. =)

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

And by the way, I'm dead sure that Dexter will win Outstanding Main Title Design and Outstanding Main Title Theme Music for this year's Emmy.

If it does not, expect another series of killings, in this case, of Emmy jurors, will ensue. =)

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

Sure CHASE, just let me know. You know naman how much i wuvyuh! =)

Thanks for liking my post. =) Nice to see you again. Tag ulit?

isagani X said...

Thanks for this post. Now I have a new series to watch, and wait for.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

Thanks for the visit ISAGANI. I was actually planning on making a series review of Dexter in my next, next post. Hope you'll drop by again for that. See you soon. Love you blog by the way, it's refreshing and informative.

And thanks for the reply too. Hmmm, 1000 direct pt contact? You can do it isagani! Go go go!!! :)

Anonymous said...

hey o luv sailor moon, when it first came out sa ch 5, and was dubbed in tagalog, i so much had fun listening to bunny's antics & voice! (they captured her persona in d vernacular!) cooool! moon krisim power transform, somethin like dat!

i also include as part of my wish list starring in porn (lol!) and macho dancing (lol!) hehehehehe... (bear with me pls.)

Again, now i better buy a pirated copy of dat DEXTER show!(sori mr EDU!) Is it shown in local tv? (r local cable operator does not want to service r area anymore, shuts!)

i really enjoy ur posts here rufruf! =)

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