Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Welcome To The Black Parade

24. That wasn’t necessarily the title of the famous Jack Bauer series. Instead, that’s the number of people eyeing my potential job assignment and the number of prospective murderers who are eagerly aspiring to hunt me down, skin me alive, feast with my internal organs, and put my skeletal remains to good use, just to get a job, with my name already written all over it.

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Yesterday was one of my busiest days ever. So many things happened that posting everything in this entry would make this post incredibly boring. I’ll try to save some stuff for later posting, and will instead post today the highlights of yesterday.


I made a courtesy call to my ICU supervisor (who has been waiting for moi since time immemorial). Remember my old post where I said that I bypassed a 6-month compulsory medical-surgical ward experience required prior to occupying an ICU post? Well, I did, upon which many staff (who are keenly eyeing that ICU slot) were alarmed and furious. Brag Alert: What can I do if I’m more qualified for the job (than them) and my boss is satisfied with my performance? I guess it’s not any of my faults anymore. (Sorry, that was totally uncalled for.)


What really infuriated me was the conversation that transpired between a new trainee and yours truly, upon which the verbatim speech, and the hidden meaning of the wordplay, are transcribed below.


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Me: Hi! Is Ms. Supervisor around? I need this pre-employment requirement personally signed by her.

She: (In an annoyingly infuriating voice) She’s in Bed G. Someone’s having a code.
Trans:
Who are you little biatch in an unflattering blue top? Someone’s dying in Bed G and all you could think of is that silly little paper of yours? How inhumane could you get?

Me: Oh then I’ll come back later. Could you tell her that I came for a visit? I’m Ruff by the way.
Trans:
I’ll come back later bee-yotch with an attitude. Honey, consider yourself lucky for having the opportunity of meeting and personally talking to me, to which only a few handful have had the chance of experiencing. I’m Ruff, by the way. Yup, you’ve heard it right, Ruff. Spelled as R for ravishing, U for uber-yummy, F for furious and F for fun. =)

She: (In a more shocked and aghast tone) Ooh so you’re Ruff.
Trans:
So you’re the reason why the supervisor won’t hire me, and the rest of us, the 24 staff nurses eyeing for the post!!!

Me: Are you getting IN for the ICU post?
Trans:
Oh my god, are you trying to steal my job?

She: Unfortunately not. Ms. Supervisor wants you to get IN first before she plans on even considering us eh.
Trans:
So, you indeed are Ruff! The frigid little whore who Ms. Supervisor prefers to HIRE instead of the 24 of us who have been kneeling in front of her just to be considered for this job. Go to hell, you pesky 5’1” minuscule troll! Get out of my sight before I strangle you alive with this dextrose line I’m holding!

Me: Oooh, I see. Hmmm, well, I’ll come by later instead. KThanksBye!
Trans:
So that’s the reason for the attitude! Might as well flee before I got shocked (defibrillated) by this mad creature or something.

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I later confirmed through my supervisor that out of (atleast) 24 staff nurses (senior staff, trainees, probies, etc.) eyeing for the job, I was considered as the nurse-of-choice. The 24 have been persistently trying to know who I was and what I have that made them the less-favored species.


Don’t you just hate it when people talk behind your back and underestimate you without even having had the chance of meeting you or knowing you personally at least? It’s not my fault if my boss wants me, and not them. I, though, have an inkling that it is because I do my JOB WELL and I do not misjudge a person for who or what he/she is. Try to do your job well, you guys! And the rewards you truly deserve will be given unto you.


Crab mentality really sucks.

I believe in karma, you know. Cultivate good seeds and soon harvest sweet fruits, plant bad seeds and reap bitter crops. And between the two of us, I guess it is me who got the last laugh. Bwahahaha. Okay, that’s just mean.


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Sorry if this entry is teeming with fury and bitterness. It’s just that so much angry feelings are welling inside of me that I might burst if I don’t let them out. I’m really a civilized person. It just pains me to see how people could do dirty things to get what they want. I’m utterly speechless.

44 comments:

engz said...

wow galeng galeng ng friend ko..
wag mong pinag-iiintindi yang mga matatandang kulang sa updates na mga nurses na yan..hihi..

lakas naman ng loob mo, ICU Nurse talaga..kabog di ba? keep it up. show them you are deserving to the post.

"whenever somebody tries to pull you down, be happy. it only means one thing, YOU ARE ABOVE THEM!!and one sure reason why they hate you, They wanted to become JUST LIKE YOU!!"

Coldman said...

cool ka lang! tatanda ka nyan! lol!

yoshke said...

you want to have the bitch murdered? i know someone... hehehehe

aries said...

cge 'lika toma tayo ng dextrose!

dean said...

2 words para sa kanila:
mga ingget!

.: jackie :. said...

i feel u. remember the egyptian sh*tas* who've I encountered with last week? that's the same old feeling i felt while im reading your post and the hell with those peeps noh.. magsama sila ng bruhang yan!

don't mind her, she's just friggin' jealous of u. if i were you, i wouldn't let her invade my emotional space..it's not worth thinking dear.

chase said...

correct ka jan..
i hate people when they talk behind your back and underestimate you.

haha- bahala sila sa buhay nila.

wow, you are the nurse of choice.
which hospital ba ito?
baka jan ako magpa admit and request for nurse ruff.

kaw talaga ang the best.
you're very smart, gets the job done, patient, loving, gwapo, sexy, yummy...
yun ang importante.. (the last 3 are important to mine. hahahahahahaah)

upakan ko yung mga 24 nurses na yun..
mga maldita..
yaks.. sori nalng at hindi kayo kasing gwapo.. i mean galing ni papa ruff namin.

bananas said...

this is sizzling with anger. u know what, a little piece of assvice, instead of saying "I am angry," try saying "I feel angry..." it works.

kc said...

Akala ko ako lang ang may roid rage sa mga impaktang chismosa *lol*. Just kidding, Ruff! It's OK to vent your anger thru blogging. It's another form of emotional catharsis. Anyway, I'll go to the real deal before I start running a psyche nurse whatever.

Those people can't do anything if the supervisor saw all that is exceptional about you. Masyado silang Biether Ocampo ha. As if naman kasalanan mo na magaling ka at napansin ng supervisor yun. Sus! Maghanap na lang sila ng ibang area para maka-move on. Because if they're going to dwell on it, they're totally retarded.

Natawa ako sa translations..nyahaha!

Cory said...

i actually don't think it's crab mentality, they're just totally envious of you and it would only be natural for them to speculate stuff about u. inggit eh at magaling ka and the position that they so covet is yours. nakakainis pero flattering at the same time. :D *applause*

kalansaycollector said...

well ganyan talaga ang nagagawa ng inggit. inggit yata ang isang kadalasang ugali na nakakapagform ng kontrabida kaya if i were you, hindi ko na sila papansinin. gawin mo na lang ang trabaho mo. ipakita mo na hindi ka pinili dahil sa wala lang, pinili ka kasi alam nila na kaya mo at deserving ka. besides pag inintindi mo sila, ikaw din ang mahihirapan. kaya aim high at say "tse" para sa magandang kinabukasan. ;p

antaray ng payo hano? hehe. go thomasians!

Anonymous said...

ha ha ha.. natakot naman ako sayo dun... an lufet!!! antariray mo sister!!! sana yung mga trans na yun sinabi mo sa kanya.. ha ha ha.. ewan ko lang kung may masabi pa siya...

try mo na mag calamares... nakakawala nang inis yun... kung bibili ka dun na sa malapit sa ospital para disnfected.. ha ha.. ;)

R
U <---trip ko to.. uber yummy!!! ;)
F
F

kingdaddyrich said...

ha ha ha.. natakot naman ako sayo dun... an lufet!!! antariray mo sister!!! sana yung mga trans na yun sinabi mo sa kanya.. ha ha ha.. ewan ko lang kung may masabi pa siya...

try mo na mag calamares... nakakawala nang inis yun... kung bibili ka dun na sa malapit sa ospital para disnfected.. ha ha.. ;)

R
U <---trip ko to.. uber yummy!!! ;)
F
F

*ha ha, na enter ko agad, anonymoust tuloy lumabas.. ;)*

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@ENGZ: Thanks engz ha. Hindi ko na nga sila iniintindi eh. Iniisip ko na lang na meron naman siguro silang mga dahilan why they want that job. I just can’t understand their attitude. Lalo na siguro silang magagalit kung nagwo-work na talaga ako right? As for me, I’ll really prove to them why I truly deserve that post.=)
~Love ko kc sa ICU engz eh, there’s so much room for learning, feel ko nars na nars ako pag nandun ako. Ako naman, kahit saan ilugar feel ko mag-t-thrive ako eh. I’m a flexible and adaptable person naman eh. In this case, I’LL JUST TAKE THE HIGH ROAD and won’t myself be affected by their insecurities. Ever.
~Thanks for the comments engz. Really appreciated it.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@COLDMAN: At dadami rin ang wrinkles! =) I’m cool coldman, reading your post about Sex Scenes readily dissipated my anger. In a flash, that is. Hehe.

@YOSHKE: Kindly give me the assassin’s contacts and I’ll have the biatch vivisected alive. I’ll give you the hides, in case you want to make a leather bag or something. =) I’ll take the bones as for my souvenir. I’ll give every blogger a free keychain while I’m at it.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@ARIES: Masyadong sweet ang dextrose aries. Baka magka-diabetes. =) Kaw din?! Toma na lang tayo ng screwdriver, mas maganda pa ang tama.

@DEAN: Korek! Gosh dean! How I’d love to scream “MGA INGGET!” in front of them. As in yung sigaw from the top of my lungs, “mga bruha kayo, inggitera.” But then again, that might spoil the fun. =) and my potential job, too.
~Thanks for the visit dean. I appreciated you dropping by The Unbearable Lightness.

kc said...

harhar. ok lang to have a bitch fit. ok lang din to feel bad about not being accepted. but it's not ok to take it against the person who got accepted di ba?

basta go ang riff your stuff. show them that you really deserve to be in that position. =)

OFF TOPIC: uy, i love paolo coelho's books. gusto ko yang by the river piedra i sat down and wept. i love the depth of the wisdom na naandyan. i think gossip girl would work for you if you'd like to know how an aspect of a rich person's life goes about..or if you want to know how other people react towards backstabbing. :)

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@ARIES: Masyadong sweet ang dextrose aries. Baka magka-diabetes. =) Kaw din?! Toma na lang tayo ng screwdriver, mas maganda pa ang tama.

@DEAN: Korek! Gosh dean! How I’d love to scream “MGA INGGET!” in front of them. As in yung sigaw from the top of my lungs, “mga bruha kayo, inggitera.” But then again, that might spoil the fun. =) and my potential job, too.
~Thanks for the visit dean. I appreciated you dropping by The Unbearable Lightness.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@ATEJACKIE: Yup ate Jackie. I remember that over-demanding, persistent, tenacious, inconsiderate client of yours. You really can’t please everybody nga talaga. No matter how we do our jobs well, someone will almost always have the tendency to pick on you, single out on your flaws, and just plant too much hatred on you. =(
~I’m not really *that affected by her insecurities naman. After all, siya pa nga ang dapat ma-bother because of her countless insufficiencies eh. One thing I have that she doesn’t? Proper attitude and self-confidence. And with that, I rest my case.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@CHASE: Haaay chase, you always say the right things. Kaya kita love eh. Wala lang, I just hate them coz I can’t understand the point of what they’re doing. Will eliminating me in the process guarantee that my slot will be given to them? I just think it so atrocious how people could be so envious of others. I’m no angel but I know my limitations naman, and I wouldn’t hurt other people’s feelings just for my personal gain. People could be so terrible at times. Buti na lang dito sa blog community natin walang ganun.
~Cyempre naman chase, I’ll give you my tender loving care 24/7. Grabe super thanks for the compliments chase. Na-touch naman ako (with matching lumalaki ang ulo). The feeling is mutual naman eh, I know that you’re an intelligent person, very well-rounded, loving, super gwapo, super sexy, super yummy, and cyempre, a dashing, gorgeous gentleman. Girls (and men) would kill to be your lover! Baka pag nakita pa nila (my kaaway) tayo together, mas lalo pa silang ma-inggit. Hahaha. =) Yabang. =)
~But thanks chase, really. Your comment brightened my rainy day.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@BANANAS: Good thing my parents brought me up really well kung hindi baka naupakan ko na yung umaaway sa akin eh. Joke. I’m not the kind of person naman na nagtatanim ng galit. After I’ve shared my sentiments here (and to some of my friends), hayun, parang natatawa na lang ako. Kaya ngayon my mantra is: “I don’t feel angry anymore…” already. Hehehe.

@KC: Thanks kc. Natatawa na nga lang ako nung binasa ko ulit eh, super mad kc ako talaga nung pinost ko eh. Now that my hormones are back to normal levels and my angry feelings already have evaporated into thin air, parang grabe nga yung bitch fit ko sa post. Buti na lang pala sa blog ko nailabas at hindi dun sa harap ng babaeng yun. =) Hehehe.
~I don’t know din kc, pero feel ko pag isa ako dun sa 24, baka same lang din ako ng reaction. Cyempre na-hurt din siguro sila sa decision ng supervisor namin pero I wouldn’t cross the line naman. Meron sigurong initial feelings of anger, pero it will not be destructive enough to be unmindful of other people’s feelings. Haaay, I still wish them well pa rin at sana maging good co-workers ko pa rin sila in the future. =)

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@CORY: I have to admit that it’s flattering. Super nakaka-inflate ng ego and self-confidence. It’s really nice to feel appreciated for the things that you do. Pero cyempre feel ko kakambal na nun yung pagkakaroon ng mga taong naiinggit sa yo eh, or are unhappy with your successes. I guess the best thing that we could do is to do our jobs well, and prove them that we are indeed worthy of the commendations and opportunities that we’re given.
~As for the compliments and the advices cory, my sincerest appreciations. Thank you. =)

Q The Conqueror said...

Hahahaha. saan kayang hospital yan?! Go Nurse Ruff!

chase said...

@ruff nurse-du-jour: hahahahaha.. i would love to see their reaction when they see us together. pa daan2x sa hospital. hhehe. inggit to the max.
tulo laway nila.

OT: ei ruff, sabi ng mga kakilala ko sa abroad. the main problem daw na ma encounter mo dun is not from the foreigners but from fellow filipinos. pag successful ka raw, iniinggitan ka at sinisiraan behind your back. Dami nang nagsabi sa akin nyan.
wala lng i'm just giving you the heads up. i'm guessing alam mo na yan na.. hheheh.

aCey said...

nakaka-intriga po talaga... lol. sorry i'm nosy today, ruff! :)

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@KALANSAY COLLECTOR: Ang taray nga talaga kalansay pero thank you soo much sa payo. Na-appreciate ko cya ng husto. Grabe iba nga talaga ang kayang gawin ng isang tao para lang makuha ang gusto niya. Hindi ko naman talaga gustong mang-away, at hindi ko intensyon ang mang-agaw ng trabaho, pero sa simula pa lamang ay akin na talaga ang posisyong yun eh. Hindi ko lang talaga maintindihan kung bakit napakaraming insecurities ng ibang tao at hindi na lang sila maging masaya para sa kapwa nila. Haaay, ang tradisyong pinoy nga naman talaga oh. Tama ka sa sinabi mo kalansay, papatunayan ko talagang karapat-dapat ako sa trabahong iyon at asahan nilang pagsisisihan nila ang mga kasamaang ginawa nila sa akin. Hahaha.

Basta sa pagitan naming dalawa, ako ang magiging bida. =)

Go thomasians! (PS. Hindi nga pala siya Tomasino, kalansay).

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@KINGDADDY: Hai naku kingdaddy, ibang level ang attitude niya sa akin. Talagang napaka-dark and twisty and gloomy ng aura niya. If looks really could kill, malamang pinaglalamayan na ako ngayon. Napa-isip tuloy ako: how could a person get so much angry with someone she doesn’t even meet yet? And how could she even pull out that attitude in front of a patient and a fellow nurse? So unprofessional. And unethical at that.

~Hahaha. There are lots of calamares at UST. I just don’t think they’re disinfected. In fairness, in cases where I developed something awry, I’m just a hop away from the hospital right?

PS. I have a love-hate feeling with that mnemonics daddy. I was supposed to write U-nderstanding, but it would be really sarcastic. Do you want me to make one for you king daddy? It’ll be a good addition for your yearbook entry. =)

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@Q THE CONQUEROR: Sa USTh Q. Imagine more politicking involved in government hospitals. =(

@KC: Ngayon calm na ako. No more hate feelings reeling inside of me. Cyempre there’s no use psychologizing over her behavior, or trying to understand her inner hatred. Bahala na si Lord sa amin. Hehehe. Basta I’ll just do my job well and be the best nurse I could ever be.
~I’ll try to finish River Piedra. I have read it before na kc, nakalimutan ko lang yung story. The last book that I’ve finished pala is The Little Prince. I couldn’t get off of my Prince’s addiction.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@CHASE: Hahaha. I’d love that idea!!! Grabe chase I could just imagine the look on their faces. Medyo madami pa namang hateful, chismosa gays sa ward. Hindi pa kc ako nag-o-open up sa mga wardmates ko eh, kaya hayun, puro speculations sila sa sexual preference ko kahit dati pa.

Thanks for the advice chase!! Yup medyo may nakakapagsabi na rin sakin ng ganyang mga inggitan stuffs, karamihan nga sa kanila eh mga nurses. Notorious pa nga raw ang mga pinoy nurses sa paggawa (and pagkalat) ng chismis eh. Don’t worry chase wala pa naman akong plans umalis, but in case where I have decided to leave the country, cyempre I’ll take your word for it. =) (tsaka gusto ko kasama ka eh, hehehe). Thanks papa dennis-chase!

yoshke said...

a friend replied to your comment on my blog's latest entry with this:

"hey ruff, i’m taking spanish lessons at the instituto cervantes now. i think the next batch of lessons start on oct 27. try to call them to ask about the lessons 526-1482 to 85."

there. charity work.

(but why Spanish? Try French. or German. hehe)

kalansaycollector said...

ruff: kaya pala ganun eh... hindi pala thomasian.. haha.

anyway naalala kita kanina kasi dumaan ako ng USTH. naghanap kasi kami ng mga information tungkol sa breastfeeding. may anak na kasi ako eh. joke. haha. para sa aming class kasi.., ;p

kingdaddyrich said...

ruff: ha ha ha.. easy ka lang... mamamatay ka nang maaga niyan.. baka yung mata mong chinito maging bilugan..;)

minsan ganon din ako na parang badtrip ako sa isang tao kahit hindi ko pa siya ganon kilala.. hindi ko na lang siya kinakausap para walang gulo... and i always try to be nice kung kinakausap niya naman ako kasi parang unfair sa side niya kung ijudge ko agad siya diba..

he he... kung ayaw mo ng calamares.. hmmm... ano ba magandang pang substitute.. ;)

Meg said...

right on! hard work does pay ;)

congrats!

JOSH said...

Gayan nurse rufruf, ilabas lang ng ilabas d2 sa blog ang saloobin ro relieve you of all thintgs boiling inside of you! We are your friends here and we support u, again, 101%!

aRen't these scenes familiar medical drama episodes, pang emmy! hehehe

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@YOSHKE: Thanks yoshke! I’ve read it on the post too. I’m planning to study Spanish but not this soon. Probably early next year. I hope I could still contact her if I’m ready to enrol na. =) I think UST students/alumni could get a discount. Hahaha.
~Would it be absurd if I tell you that I spent my entire morning yesterday reading through most of your stuffs? The First Day of December, and your nephew talks are beautiful. The former almost brought me to tears. =( Tears, tears.
~Spanish first, then French. I prefer Mandarin than German though.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@KALANSAY COLLECTOR: Korek! I was at UST din pala. I was at Nitro having a DVD recopied. Sana tinext mo ko para meet tayo. Hehehe. =)
~Akala ko naman ikaw na yung nagpapa-breastfeed eh. Hehe. There are several brochures available at the Medical Arts or OB-GYN Out-Patient. Sana marami kang nakuha. Hehehe.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@KINGDADDY: Did you know that the average life expectancy of a Filipino male is 69 years old? Two years shorter than the average Filipino female? And mine would definitely even be shorter than that. =(
~There are times na ganun din ako eh, parang first impression pa lang ayaw ko na sa tao pero cyempre I still try to get to know them. Kung hindi maganda ang ugali, civil na lang, pero hindi naman ako warfreak. I’m a changed man na kc. Hehehe. =)
~Cge na nga kingdaddy, I’ll try the calamares when I get back.

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@MEG: Thanks for the visit meg. And prayers do too. =)

@JOSH: Grabe josh it has been ages since I last posted angry posts here, laging sad or melancholic feelings. I hope this will be the last though. Baka ma-misinterpret ng mga readers na angry person ako. Hehehe.
~Thanks for the support josh ha. Now that my angry feelings have dissipated already, this event will only be known as a near-forgotten part of my memory.
~I-submit na ba natin sa screenwriter ng Grey’s Anatomy josh? I get to play the role of the bit-sy nurse. Just kidding. =) Those medical dramas are nowhere near the real hospital events josh. Minsan nga mas-madrama pa sa totoong buhay eh. Hehehe =)

yoshke said...

ugh, if you want to study Mandarin just because you think that China will rise as the next superpower SOON, ah, forget it. It's not gonna happen. Not soon, at least.

German na.

yoshke said...

and oh, not absurd. not at all.

JOSH said...

@yoshke, aleman ba kamo? Hmnn... dats y pala we have a pure chinese foreign U.P. student here, who tutors my boss's kids in mandarin, and wants to go to germany (& wants to learn german of course)

yoshke said...

josh, oh no, im not saying that Germany is going to be the next superpower. definitely not.

was just brainwashing Ruff into taking German classes instead of Mandarin. :)

chase said...

you are just too cute and handsome to be straight.. kaya, they're making chismis. hehehe

ruff nurse-du-jour said...

@YOSHKE: Not for that reason, actually. Since I’ll be headed for the States in a few years time (forcibly by my pushy relatives, that is), basic knowledge in Mandarin would be helpful in line with the growing statistics of Chinese immigrants (both legal and illegal) in the mainland. It’s more of a practical choice for moi.

@YOSHKE: After reading most of your entries, I can now exclaim, from the top of my clean, fresh, pink lungs, that I’m now your biggest fan! Ever! Now, that is not absurd… at all.

@JOSH and YOSHKE: About the superpower part, I agree. That dream, is still underbaked and premature methinks. Parang torture ang German eh. Very labial. (?)

About the other German stuff… well, okay I’ll stop. =)